Saturday, 29 August 2015

Oh my!

My house is part of the historic houses -event this weekend in Lovisa, called Loviisan wanhat talot/ Lovisa historiska hus.

I had so many wonderful souls visiting, one guests asked, can this house be for real? So sweet and kind, thank you all!

Here are pictures taken by one guest, Katja Pora.

 My veranda.
 My bathroom door.
My bathroom.

Tomorrow the event continues. Welcome to Lilla Ljuva!

Wednesday, 26 August 2015


Yesterday me and L travelled to Helsinki. We started off with dinner at my absolute favorite thai-restaurant called Lemon grass. Delicious food!

Then  we walked down to the shore, to the Huvila-tent and enjoyed a wonderful evening of music and dance. The evening started off with a finnish artist called Aurora, she has had a few hits, likeable yes, but her songs had very little variety unfortunately. Here is one of her hits called Se soi, enjoy!

And then Neuza hit the stage, what a charming and charismatic performer. And the band! We danced and we were happy! Here is wonderful Djar fago, enjoy! The evening was warm, 20 degrees, one of those august nights that we will carry in our hearts.

This performance was part of the ongoing Helsinki festivals. For finnish readers, here is a review.

The picture above is of sweet Neuza signing autographs after the performance, we were given permission to photograph her.

Monday, 24 August 2015

French toast on rooftops

I travelled to Helsinki and attended a first step in a tantra course. Please hold your horses, tantra is not only about erotic, it is so much more. It is also erotic, but mainly it's about love and connecting energies. I have practised tantra for years, on and off. Like I do yoga, I sometimes do tantric yoga. Tantric exerciseas are so good for the body and it is meditative and fun. I haven't previously written about my tantric intrests (I did my first course back in the 90´s in Stockholm), mainly because I have noticed how poeple react to when I talk about tantra and I usually feel a need to explain. I get a lot of jokes about it too. I can take it. But to write about this in a forum where people who do not know me read this and might get an idea that perhaps doesn't correlate with reality. Oh my. But I cannot control what other people might think. And does it matter? People tend not to be intersted and I am by no means an exception, that somehow somewhere people would lie awake in their beds at night and think and wonder about what sort of tantric exercises I practise...

After the course I met up with my dearest M. Dinner was ready when I arrived. We walked up to the attic, from there we climbed onto the roof and enjoyed a lovely dinner overlooking the rooftops in wonderful evening sun. Delicious salad, beetroot soup, bread with hummus, ginger beer and french toast with ice-cream and jam.

What a  wonderful sunday and I was so happy when I returned home late with the bus, and a certain darling L came to meet me, lucky lucky me. So very spoiled human beeing dancing on this planet. Life!

The picture above is from the rooftop.

Thursday, 20 August 2015

Such a waste of resources

My house is part of an open house event organized in the little town I live in. I will not mention the name of the event, so to not spill any of this rather otiose matter upon this charming and lovely event. It is widely popular and I had almost thousand guests last year when I was involved for the first time. All of the visitors to my house showed great respect and they were all friendly, kind and warm.

Except for one person.

The ex-wife. She informed me by sms that she would like to visit my home. Asked if it was ok. At the time I tried to be kind towards her, even though she had made my life rather difficult and ugly by all sorts of rules regarding where I was allowed to be, walk and whom I was allowed to talk to. Seriously. We agreed upon so many absurd demands from her. I thought at the time that part of her behaviour did smell a lot like stalking, but I was too exhausted to do anything about it. So I responded to her sms, that I didn't think it was wise of her to visit my house and that this was not the platform for a meeting nor would I be able to speak to her. She instisted she wanted to come and threatend by writing she would come, regardless of what I said, as she had a right to enter any of the open houses as she had a ticket.

I was too tired to argue the matter with her. And did not know as a first timer, that that is utter bullshit. She has absolutely no right to enter my house without my consent. As the owner of the house, I get to choose who enters.

So, she did arrive and she made such an awful dramatic show of it all, she even hugged me and soon  wrote about it in her blog, as to show and tell everyone what a generous person she is, she wrote it herself in her blog, "jag är en storsint människa". That she has hugged me. Makes me sick when I even think about that awful day. That is not generous. That is forcing others to your will. It is utter abuse.

Due to her behaviour since, we do not trust that she will not play this ugly stunt on me again. Even though I have written to her and told her that she is not welcome to my home during this open house event. I have gone through what happened last year, shown her messages and sms regarding this matter to the  organizers and they thought it wiser to provide my house with a guard, with the right to stop her from entering the premises.

But, I think it is such a bloody waste of resources. The guards should be in places where there is real need. I do need a guard as I will never again let this person into my home and she cannot be trusted. She has lured her way into my home once, and we need to make sure it will NEVER happen again.

She has regularly since their separation and divorce reported on her blog and facebook-page, where we have been seen, what we do etc. Due to the fact that I appear regularly on her blog, I have been the target for internet-trolls and hatemail. She carries no responsability for this, she only states her right to write about her feelings. And plays the innocent victim.
I have asked her (several times) not to write about me, that I do not wish to appear on her blog, so she no longer uses my name, she refers to me as her ex-husband's new love (and by this nobody guesses who she refers to, where is her logic????).

The one thing I am thankful for, is that the renovation of my home was far from ready last year, so her presence has not left any vivid memory, rooted in any room. And all the other almost thousand friendly and generous persons who payed a visit, they left kind and suportive words, that I never wanted to wash away nor wish to fade away.

This year, my home is almost ready. I shall welcome every visitor with open arms. And this year I will not be abused nor forced to hug people I have no respect for.

I feel priviledged to be part of this lovey event, even though some of the resources, in my opinion, are beeing wasted due to this matter. I'm glad I have finally managed to create boundaries against internetbullies. It is about time!

The chair above, is a picture taken by me, the almost identical image can be found on her blog last year and the facade to my house. I shall not link to her blog, as she also uses statistics as a measure for why she has a right to write about me. Her blog has been rated a hateblog due to her washing her dirty laundry in public and several rasist posts. One does sometime wonder why, why write lies and why constantly balance on the border of what is politically correct, what is ethicly right, not to mention, morally? Why does one get kicks from beeing provocative. The reason lies in statistics. Provocative texts attracts readers. Attentionseekers christmaspresent.

 A divorce is never an easy matter, but it surely doesn't become easier when you go public about assumptions and utter lies.

This shall be the last post about this matter to ever appear on my  blog. She was a thorn in my side, but due to creating these and other boundaries alike, the thorn is finally gone!

Edit 21.8.2015. The ex-wife has only once appeared on my blog, I have written about her once.  Here. It is called Black cloud.

Wednesday, 19 August 2015


My veranda is slowly taking shape.
Now the floor has been vaxed, I placed my wooden sofa on the veranda. For a few years I have planned and dreamed of a wooden lid for it. Easier to sit in the sofa and perfect storage. So now my dream has come true! Last night, me and L, built the lid. I covered it with a vintage fabric and voilá, a perfect palce to sit and enjoy a cup of tea, read a book...
This morning I enjoyed my breakfast here, as it was a little bit chilly to have breakfast on the terass.
Happy happy joy joy!

Saturday, 15 August 2015

Bring it on!

I, personally, believe love is everywhere. You just need to open up your heart and dare to be yourself, dare to be vulnerable. But you also need to give. Unconditionally. If you are greedy, or only want acceptance, then you are not open for love. Then you are open for other things, often criticism and that doesn´t heal a soul.

I have always been a very lucky soul, to have been a target for much love and I have been given so much love in life. I do love, too much at times, but rather so than not loving at all.

So. this sign in my kitchen is in my opinion a perfect portion of a reminder to open up for love with all it's beauty, as well as cocky, let love come, I'm ready to take on the challenge of love -sort of way. Because you need to work on all relationships, nothing and nobody should be taken for granted.
Låt kärleken komma is the last words in a favorite song by Eva Dahlgren, Innan kärleken kom. Here sung by another darling, Helen Sjöholm.

So love, love and love!

Tuesday, 11 August 2015


After a weeks holiday in Parga, Greece and a well needed pause from social media, I am back home and started work today! I always find it healthy to step away from social media. I find it healthy to check my own social media behaviour, my own addiction to it. Happy I am far from addicted, I even consider to step away more often and for longer periods.
We, me and L, had a wonderful time together.
Parga has a wonderful landscape, surrounded by mountains. Beautiful olive plantation up in the hills, we did not hike very far this time, but far enough to see the variety of the landscape. We saw lemontrees giving fruit, we saw people sitting in their chairs outside their houses. Small houses and small gardens, small narrow streets.
The weather treated us well. We were overwhelmed by the genuine friendly people we met, the tastes and the sounds, the beautiful turqoise water, the crickets, the velvet nights, the stars, the lights, the narrow roads. By serenity.

Sunday, 2 August 2015

Hello august!

So much good stuff happening in life at the moment.
Wonderful people and so much love and love and even more love.
Today we, me and L, organized a small venue to thank all our guests this summer at the kiosk, so many people turned up and we spent the whole day outdoors in the sun, enjoying coffee and buns and ice-cream and how lucky we are to be surrounded with all this kindness and warmth.
We later had the most wonderful evening with dear friends and relatives, delicious food and wine and when cykling home we just smiled and sighed, life is so good!

Take care! Love to you all!

Above are roses I received from J. Tack finaste!
And look, my windowsill that I purchaised for 2 euros (Seriously! And it was the exact length as my window) at the fleamarket is now in place on the veranda. I cannot wait to fill the window with geraniums and lacecurtains...sit in my wooden sofa, listen to LP's and drinking tea with honey (L brought the most wonderful green tea as a gift when he travelled to Tallinn a few weeks ago, he even brought the most wonderful ginger-jam, and we have enjoyed it on Digestive cookies), looking out at the soft august nights with lit candles. Oh yes, bring it on, we are ready!

Sunday, 26 July 2015


My vintage movieposter has landed on the wall in my porch.

The movie is Gaslight.
And here is the trailer for the movie. I must see this!

Friday, 24 July 2015

An afternoon with Elvis

This afternoon I cykled to my friend E.

Their Volkswagen Beetle was parked in the driveway. Two vintage bikes leaned onto the garage wall. A line of washed sheets danced in the wind.
In the kitchen E and her four year old daughter were doing the dishes.  I sat on the floor and the little one asked me all sorts of lovely questions. Will you stay for the night? Well that is a nice idea, but I had not planned to stay so long this time. Why are you wearing a flowerdress? This morning when I chose what to wear, I spotted this dress and I haven't worn it in a very long time, so I decided to wear it today, and if I feel it isn't what I prefer to wear, then I can give it to charity and maybe somebody else will have more use of it than me. Why are you wearing red nailpolish? I do have a few other colours too, but I seem to prefer the red ones. My mummy also has red. And she has black too. Why do you wear pins in your hair? I am trying to let my fringe grow out. And to prevent myself from looking like a poor imitation of Elvis Presley, I use pins. Who is El..Pr...? He was a singer. He sang lovely songs and shook his hip and made people go crazy!
It started to rain outside. E's husband carried the sheets indoors and the scent of fresh laundry spread in the rooms. We listened to Elvis and tried to imagine him shaking his hip. We didn't go all crazy. We drank many cups of espresso, ate biscottinis and I sat with the little one in my lap and felt life is sooooo gooood. Friends.

I cykled home with a vintage bottle of Sorbus, a cheap wine made of rowanberries. It is no longer in production due to poor sales. E and her husband found lots of these vintage bottles when they renovated their garage. And now one of them is in my home. I love the etiquette.

And here is Elvis singing.

Very happy to read about a book-collaboration of father and daughter Juslin. Our dear, dear friends Beni and Emma. Read the article (in swedish) here.

Sunday, 19 July 2015

During the past two days...

...I have managed to work on my porch (I am covering the walls that only have isolation, but no solid wall), have a gig at a double birthdayparty (30 + 60), varnish the twigs in the ceiling, make a birthday-present for a two-year old (origamibirds on a twig), deliver the pressy, stand in for my darling L at the kiosk so he could attend the birthdayparty, continue work on the porch and paint the ceiling. I think I'm entitled a relaxed sunday evening with my darling! Tea and candles and invite Joshua James to perform...I was lucky to see not only one, but two performances when they first came to perform in Helsinki, some years ago.

Wishing you a relaxed sunday!

Above are some more signs I made.

Thursday, 16 July 2015

Proudly present

I am happy when my friends and colleagues do well and get recognition for their work. So now I am proud to introduce my friend Lorraine Spiteri, we participated and worked in the same EU-project some years ago, and became friends.

Here is her portraits that are part of a series of portraits of women in Malta.

Above is a detail in my bedroom.The round box is so beautiful, it has lovely embroidery on the inside. I have no clue what it might have been used for. Storage of some sort, but what?

Wednesday, 15 July 2015

Dogs are your bestestest friend

I have this charming row of dogs in my kitchen. Makes me happy happy joy joy everytime I see them. Made by my dear friend Kaisa Korpela, a wonderful potter and artist living in Lovisa.

Tuesday, 14 July 2015

Mock orange and luck

Oh my, yesterday I spotted a mock orange (fin. Jasmike, sve. Schersmin) in my garden. It is huge, like a tree. In full bloom. It was slightly hidden behind the lilacs, that are dominant in my garden.
But there it was. So I picked a few branches and the wonderful scent spread in my kitchen. Lucky me!

Later in the evening I received a wonderful bouquet of red roses from my darling, so now my kitchen is full of flowers. Once again, lucky lucky me! Extremely spoiled human waving and wishing you a wonderful tuesday!

As I probably mentioned above, I happen to be a very lucky human, I have three young persons helping me out in my garden. Due to a car-accident soon 12yrs ago, I have a shoulder injury that at times lets me know of its existence. Especially if I dig with a spade, so unfortunately I will never fit as a gravedigger! In front of my house, there's a huge flowerbed, with Mezereum, which is a highly poisonous plant, so I want it gone from my garden. I also want to lower the flower bed.
These three kind souls are part of a workshop aimed at younger persons, that haven't found their path so to speak, and need a little help in finding what it might be they want to work with, or study in life, or even in the near future. So they work on various projects together in small groups, and sometimes individually. Today they are helping me. And I am very grateful.

Monday, 13 July 2015

Give me a sign!

For my darling on his birthday, this is what I made. A sign of an old spoon. To stand in a pot of flowers. And a cake, the same delicious cake as we had for midsummer. Everyone enjoyed it, it is heavenly!
Grattis på födelsedagen kärleken!

Thursday, 9 July 2015

Just lovely!

I fill vases with flowers and the scent spread in all the rooms, lovely summer!

Monday, 6 July 2015

Slowly, slowly...

... a home is taking shape.
Found these toothbrush holders at the local fleamarket, the glasses are original, and in fact, the colour I like to add to my bathroom. I have towels this colour, I have a lifebuoy that has stripes in turquoise. It is from a ship that no longer cruises the sea, it apparently is a restaurantboat in Turku, the M/S Kristina Regina.

One for me and one for L.

Friday, 3 July 2015

Summer peaks

We've had a wonderful change in weather, it is sunny and warm.
Lots of socializing going on, going out, dining out, barbeque...we haven't had a night on our own with L for ages. So tonight we are having a date! Can't wait!
But before that, guess what I am up to? Starts with a c? Yes, yes, cobblestone-ptoject still continues.

Going to be a warm sunny day and I need to cover up, I burn easily in the sun. Redheads have definitely more fun, but we burn;)

Above is a sculpture on a thick book.

Saturday, 27 June 2015

A bargain

I found this lovely chair at the fleamarket. A real bargain for 20 euros. The back was upholstered, but I prefer it without. The seat has too much stuffing, so I shall take care of that too...but still perfect for Muru to sit on, hih!

It is raining again. So my cobblestone-project has to wait. Surely one can work when it is raining but I am not that eager...

Thursday, 25 June 2015

Cobblestone project

So that is all I can think of and talk about and plan and do and dream and write about... Well luckily it hasn't gone that far. Yet.
This is how far I got yesterday. Today L helped me get some more stones. He is the kindest. So tomorrow I can continue...

I am very pleased with the outcome. It is all natural stone, so the sizes vary, some are rather big and quite deep in the soil. I think this sort of cobblestone suits my garden better than the new cobblestones that are often very similar in size.

One small step towards one of my dreams...I have always been weak for small gardens with cobblestone and lilacs. When in Gothenburg, I had to stop at every gate and sigh and fill my heart and soul with all the beautiful inner gardens, all covered in, yes, cobblestone and with lilacs. Those images never left me. And here I am, many years later, my garden is surrounded with lilacs and now there shall be cobblestone too. I want to sit on a bench with my darling, hold his hand and hum to any of his favorite songs and look at him closing his eyes as he listens to my humming...

But first I need to finish the project!

Tuesday, 23 June 2015


I used to do a lot of dancing before, now for ther past few years, it is only occasional. Simply as I haven't had time, due to I am renovating a house!

But yesterday I attended a course in Helsinki. We did the basic waltz, oh, how I enjoy those long slides on the floor and the turns, yes, let's do more turns! We also did a really showy cha cha, I smiled all the way home as I was a happy gal'! To wear dancing shoes, they have a t-strap and heels and a skirt, oh happy joy-joy! I am by no means a ballroom type of dancer, but I do enjoy some ballroom dances, but not the competing styles. They are no longer natural in my opinion.

The music was wonderful, we waltzed to Charles Aznavour! My goodness, I loved his music as a child! Here is one of my favorites, Non, je n'ai rien oublié.

Time to continue with the cobblestone -project...

Above are my veggies on the kitchen counter. I keep salt in a shell. It is handy when cooking.

Be well my friends!

Saturday, 20 June 2015

Midsummer, mittumaari

So now we have celebrated midsummer.
The weather made a sudden change, from lousy grey and rainy, it suddenly became warm and the clouds started to form in the sky and the sun decided to show up! I had rhubarb-juice and a slice of bun at L's lovely kiosk in the afternoon.

Later we made dinner, a salad to start with and toast Skagen for main course, for desert we had coffee and cake. I decorated the cake with violets, slightly visible in the picture. The cake was delicious. And baked by my friend Anci, as a payment for a job. We enjoyed some ecological sparkling wine.

Later in the evening we cykled about, bumped into some friends, chatted with them and headed down to the seaside and had a few drinks.

We had a lovely midsummer, I wore a flower wreath and flower dress and topped it off with socks in my sandals, very chic, hih!

Thursday, 18 June 2015


I have been busy with fun projects.
Darling L opened his summer café and kiosk. He wanted me, or infact Ninitchi,  to make a few interior changes. So I made a flagbanner, and cleaned the facade from too much clutter, added a few details, and voilá , he is very pleased with the outcome. I even made a few changes inside the kiosk, as that is the place he is mainly, it has to be cosy and convenient. It is now. I got him a coffeemachine, a double Moccamaster, with a little help from my ex-mother-in-law, kiitos Tuuti!

We, L and me, made a little trip to our nearby town Borgå. We walked in the oldtown, popped into antiqueshops and toyshops and had lunch (and held the rain) in a restaurant, had coffee in the backyard of a café. When we had strolled for almost five hours we both felt it was time to head home.

I have been working in my garden also. Started a "small" project, laying cobblestone.

Here is a closeup.

I also made rhubarb-juice. It is the best drink in the summer!

...and more is coming! Just received many kilos of rhubarb from my friend Benita! Made some more juice, and making rhubarb and strawberry desert for tonight. With some whipped cream.

Tomorrow is midsummer eve. We have really sad weather here. It rains and is chilly. Just around ten degrees! I am serious! Still going to wear a flower dress.
This year I am not baking a cake. As I received two cakes as payment for a job, and got to pick the dates for when I wish to have the cakes delivered, hih! So this is the first one. A blueberrycake.

Wishing you wonderful midsummer! Stay warm dear friends!

Sunday, 7 June 2015


Luxury is when your love arrives home from Wienna with a real Sacher-cake!

Luxury is sundaybreakfast outdoors with a clearbue sky. The blue chairs, we have two, are purchaised from a local shop called Karamaloo. Their products are from Gambia, Senegal and Ghana. They are so comfy to sit in! 
Have a wonderful  sunday!

Friday, 5 June 2015


Now my bathroom door is ready. A crazy overdose of flowers. A door in bloom.

Now I'm off to meet my love, he is home from Wienna in less than an hour! I cannot wait to have my darling home again.

Happy weekend lovely friends!

Thursday, 4 June 2015

A door in bloom

When renovating, I try to use things that I have found in the house that can be used, if it is in working order, like my stove and the basin in the bathroom. Most doors. This door was in the attic, a boooring and ugly 80's wooden door. But I needed a door for my bathroom, so I used this one and thought, I'll do something to it one day. This is the outcome. The surroundings are still in process,  slowly slowly.

I started by covering the door with old booksheets.
I then started to add flowers.

Ended up with a door in bloom..

Hair and Suffragette trailer

I was a child during the 70's, the trendy hairstyle then was the potty-style, you know, shortish round. I never had long hair. I've secretly envied people with long hair, but never managed to grow it long as I really liked having short hair. For the past, I don't know how many years, I've had a page. I've let my hair grow now and recently learned how to do different hairdos.
So on saturday I sported with one hairdo. It was soooo difficult to capture on is how I tried, either too close, too far aside, past my head...hih! The last picture finally captured my hairdo!

Oh, I cannot wait for the Suffragettes to premier! Here's the trailer.
”We're in every house, we're half the human race you cannot stop us all...”

Tuesday, 2 June 2015

When I am...

...working on a fun project I loose time. Right now I am working on my house and I have a few really fun and time consuming projects on the go, so it is a good thing I enjoy it! And loose time!

... in love. I just want to post silly things about me and L.  And how happy I am. How much in love I am. And how my whole life is a love song.

Found some old photos at the flea market. This one just charmed me. The words are not mine. But the internet gives me hundreds of options to who might have written, for now I'll just tell they are not mine.

Sunday, 31 May 2015

Blessed is sunday

Today has been wonderful, filled with love, food and a little fun work.

I made a finnish version of galettes for dinner, well, it is not galettes at all as I didn't fry galettes, I used a flatbread! But the topping is something I usually top galettes with...I topped it with spinach, slices of apple, fried mushrooms and fried tomatoes, grilled chevré and roasted pumpkin seeds, fresh coriander and balsamico. Sooooo delicious!

Here is my row of adorable dogs made by my friend Kaisa. They hang in my kitchen.

Time to take farewell of may and welcome june!

Thursday, 28 May 2015

Summer reading

Hooooray, my summer-reading arrived today!This is what I shall start my holiday with. The top one, by Liv Strömquist and Caroline Ringskog Ferrada-Noli, I ordered because I simply adore all that Liv does. I have also read many of Nina Åkestams chronicles and her blog, so looking forward to reading her book.

Ok. Soon it's time to take farewell of may. I've said it before - I'll say it again, where oh where does time fly?