Thank you all for your kind words and your warm empathy. You are truly warm and kind. Taken by surprise - out of the blue a huuuuge sadness appeared yesterday. I guess that when my new home now is almost ready, I´m about to move, my divorce is final. I´m about to turn a blank page in my book - and it is all taking place at the same time. That could have caused or triggered off the sadness. I feel so different today and I´m back on track again. I suppose I needed to step away for a moment.